If Only You Knew
I can't move
I can barely speak
Barely able
To get out of bed
It's hardly worth the effort
It takes just to breathe
Stripped long ago
Of all my willpower
I have grown so weak
Neither my body nor my mind
Possess even an ounce of energy
I now know
I'll never be free
If only you knew
What it's like to be me
I used to be afraid of dying
But that was before
Living became so hard
I don't know what's worse,
The shame or the anger
Ever since I became
This awful stranger
In this darkness
Breeds only negativity
If only you knew
What it's like to be me
Heavy thoughts
A heavy heart
It's way too late
For a new start
Too far gone
To try again
Each day that I live
Is one day closer
To the end
The end of all this madness
No more pretending
To feel sane
But I'll never find peace
My choices in life
Guarantee eternal pain
If only you knew
What it's like to be me
You would never look at me
The same
You would avert your eyes
Avoiding my questioning gaze
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poem by Erika Wingo
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